SharkysWorld

No one reads this crap but myself (and maybe my wife, if the post isn’t in the Pokemon category)…so let’s get personal for a second- Sharketo isn’t dead but it is in a coma.

I have really huge mood swings- I go from being really happy and motivated to pretty depressed and it all revolves around my mom’s health, the news and life in general.

I do feel that Sharketo (lazy keto) is the perfect thing for me- I dropped 50 lbs. on it and was really happy- however, I think my food addiction is more based on emotions and control and less on the actual food. I use to think that I was just addicted to the taste of food but when you go on a diet where you can eat meat, cheese and bacon but STILL not stick to it, there has to be other issues and I’m slowly figuring those issues out.

I don’t like to get too personal on here but just know that my mom is really sick and has been for about 8 years; it’s like a roller coaster, only the “downs” are when the DR tells you that your mom won’t live past the weekend and then a few weeks later she is eating popsicles and making jokes- it’s been to that extreme about 6-8 times and it really takes its toll on a person. Even on her good days, she is in an enormous amount of pain, can’t move herself and can basically only stare at a wall and then she gets rolled over to stare at the other wall…it’s not much of a life. The issue is in my head 24/7 and, at times, it can get really overwhelming and I just turn to food and here are the two main reasons I’ve come up with –

1.      I’m trying to commit a slow suicide. I know that sounds like I need some serious help but the longer the situation goes on, the more I realize that life isn’t beautiful- it’s brutal and painful and since we all die anyway, sometimes it feels like sooner is better.

2.      Control. This is a weird one but the more I focus on my weight, the more it pops up. I’ve been trying to think about what I’m feeling and why I’m eating every time I eat and it’s usually control. We were really poor, on food stamps and government help when I was a kid- all the way up until the day I moved out on my own and, even then, I was poor…we are still poor but doing better than a lot. I never had the freedom to walk into a store and buy anything I wanted and since I literally have everything I could possibly want, I turn to buying food. When you go on a diet or new way of eating, there are foods you “can’t” have and I think that is a huge part of the issue- I recognize that feeling I get when I walk into a store and tell myself that I can have ANY food in that place….ANYTHING! I go overboard and get this and that and those and the feeling is better than an orgasm. I’m not trying to get nasty on ya, just saying…it’s an amazing feeling…that then leads to crashing afterwards….then regret and then I start over again. That is addiction.

Right now, I seem to be at a good spot…I’m realizing the issues and hopefully it’s not too late to tackle them…I really want to get back to Sharketo and start using my awesome gym I’ve set up and get back to really “feeling” good but it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done and I know people get tired of riding on my roller coaster with me and I’m really trying my best to get off it.

I watch Boogie2988 and he just had weight loss surgery and I’ve always told myself I just won’t do that but it’s crept into my mind…I’ll be 40 years old in about 6 months and if I’m not on track by them, it could be a real option…but I don’t want to get to that point.

Boogie said something that really hit me….you can be overweight due to food and lack of exercise but when you get morbidly obese like I am (400 plus), there has to be something bigger…it’s not just that you eat too many calories, there has to be an addiction, emotional issues…something pushing you to basically commit slow suicide and until you understand that, you won’t be successful.

I’ve never quit trying…for the last decade…I’ve had some big success and even bigger failures but I’ve never just given up totally and I don’t plan to ever do that.

Love, Peace and Sharkyness
~~~~~shArky~~~~~

…usually.

There is one major thing that folks don’t understand about Pokemon- you can have a favorite Pokemon but NOT play it in your deck.

Sometimes people luck up and have their favorite Pokemon be Darkrai or Gardevoir and they get to play with them in some of the most powerful decks ever built- they get to feel the happiness of watching their favorite Pokemon run wild in the world, destroying everything in its path…but then you have people like me…I may never get that feeling.

My favorite Pokemon is Cubone…try playing a Cubone deck and see what happens. We do have an Alolan Marowak which could lead to playing a couple Cubone’s here and there but I doubt it. My second favorite is Pikachu and even though Pikachu has an EX and is even in a few decks, it’s not great. (Right now, you basically use Marshadow to copy Pikachu’s attack!)

My third favorite is Sharpedo and it even got a MEGE EVOLUTION…but still…not good.

Those are my three favorites…of course- I am a fan of Darkrai and I do get to use that to run wild a bit but it’s not the same as knocking out a high HP, full powered Gardevoir GX with a Cubone…I mean…a man can dream, right?

The first thing I did when I started actually getting into the TCG was to hop online and use the deck wizard- I was asked to pick two Pokemon…well, duh- Cubone and Pikachu!!! The deck was randomly built and I was on my way…my record is 0-7 with that deck. It is terrible but it taught me a strong lesson- don’t play your favorite Pokemon in a deck, unless it’s a part of the meta.

I do have a couple standards that I try my best to work in…I always use my Sharpedo coin and I try to work in a full art Wicke card into most decks. It’s not a terrible card and reminds me of my wife, so you can’t go wrong there.

So….all that rambling to simply say…I’m pretty sure that hitting a floating fairy with a bone from my dead mother should probably be enough for the win… at least once! 

Love, Peace and Sharkyness
~~~~~shArky~~~~~

A now…for something completely different.

The Story of Cubone.

I’ve always known what Pokemon was- it came out when I was in high school and I always thought Pikachu was cute (he’s still one of my favs) but I never gave it much thought. Flash forward 20 years and my son is into Pokemon and we are buying cards left and right and he is trying to tell me everything there is to know so I don’t have much choice but to listen.

Then I get interested and then…BOOM…I become the legendary trainer I am today.

I started reading up on Pokemon and a story quickly jumped out at me and a special bond was formed between me and a little bipedal Pokemon.

Cubone is the child of Marowak, who dies while defending it from Team Rocket. Cubone then puts on its mother’s skull to continue to protect it during battles. Cubone sees the likeness of its mother in the moon and cries throughout the night. The stains on the skull that it wears are made from its tears.

Now, if that story wasn’t sad enough…listen to this…the FIRST Cubone I ever caught in Pokemon Go was at the Frankfort Cemetery! We were driving around, getting Pokestops and it just popped up on one of the graves.

There is a 20 year old theory in Pokemon that Cubone could also evolve into a Kangaskhan!

Kangaskhan doesn’t evolve into or from any other Pokemon, but the theory says that if a Kangaskhan passes away, the child in its pouch would use the skull of its parent to protect itself out in the wilds. Eventually this Cubone, the abandoned child, would evolve into a Marowak and then into a Kangaskhan, thus bringing things full circle!

I keep a stuffed Cubone next to my computer at all times- to help me make decisions on PTCGO…because I’m weird like that.

This is why Pokemon is so awesome….even though Cubone isn’t very powerful and there isn’t really a strong deck for him, he is barely even playable in the card game- his story is still amazing.

All of the different Pokemon, different games, different shows and different stories is what makes it more of a lifestyle than a game…its stories like that which makes it entertaining for adults as well. The entire world of Pokemon is incredible and it saddens me that I waited until my late 30’s to really get into it.

Now…go out there and be the best, like no one ever was!

Love, Peace and Sharkyness
~~~~~shArky~~~~~

I’m a writer…a poet
I never knew it
Now I know it
I’m not a show-er
I’m a grower
A lyrical leaf blower
I don’t take shit
I drop rhyme
Like a crime
A wordy who done it
That wasn’t natural
It didn’t have a flow
My switch was turned off
I didn’t blow
I was sucking
Call it a typo
Like when my phone uses ducking
That’s not what I entered
I was trying to say ducking
DUCK…
DUCK…
Stupid auto correct.

Love, Peace and Sharkyness
~~~~~shArky~~~~~

Let’s, for a moment, be on the same page. I, as an atheist, will put myself in your shoes and agree with your beliefs- there is a god…but not any of the other thousands of gods….only YOURS.
I keep seeing people like Kirk Cameron or random preachers yelling about how all of these hurricanes and earthquakes are god’s punishment for things like abortion, gay people or just not being humble enough and I wonder, why can’t it be the other way around?

Remember- we both now believe in Yahweh…so why can’t he be creating all of this chaos due to things like electing someone like Donald Trump to lead us? Why can’t the hurricanes be getting stronger and stronger because he is getting madder and madder that we continue to allow racism to march in the streets, disguised as “freedom of speech?” 

Here is a better idea- maybe god created hurricane Harvey to give Christians a chance to show the world their values and to be the light in such a terrible storm…but then people like Joel Osteen let him down, so he created hurricane Irma to give them a second chance? Another shot to do the right thing?

Maybe god sees the way we are closing abortion clinics and treating women like second class citizens, the way we hate each other for our difference or the way we let our government control who can/can’t love each other (and get a tax break for it).

I find it funny that we both now agree that god exists yet we each use the “wrath of god” to further our agendas- yours of control and hate and mine of love and acceptance. 

Maybe god sees that we are destroying the planet he created…we’ve realized how and why yet we continue to refuse to stop and ignore things like global warming, so he’s decided to step it up and help us destroy his creation even quicker?

That was fun…but back to reality. Claiming hurricanes are punishment from a god due to people not following YOUR agenda is beyond insane and shows how screwed up your head is- to ignore that this stuff is not only normal but continues to intensify based on climate issues is the exact reason things continue to get worse and worse…and the answer is to pray.

Pray for Texas, Pray for Florida….pray for this and pray for that and keep pushing outdated, idiotic fairy tales.

If you believe in god, maybe you are misreading his messages…but if you don’t, maybe you are just as tired of the bullshit as I am.

Love, Peace and Sharkyness
~~~~~shArky~~~~~